The Preparation

There are so many things I want to do. but the day is to short. I’m stuck between choosing to train grappeling, learn piano, go to school, read ,and socialize at the expense of sleep and exhaustion, or allocating time into select areas at the expense of forgoing other things.

I know I must spend time with people lest loneliness creeps into my goals. Without sleep my critical thinking dissolves into lapses and confusion and grogginess. Yet, I know it is possible to do all of these while still maintaining personal health. My difficulty comes with trying to put enough time into each activity while still feeling like I am making progress. The key word is -feeling-. Intellectually, I know that putting in quality effort consistently with any task will bear fruit. Though, subconsciously, I feel dissatisfied unless I see “sufficient” improvement in the session, particularly with piano.

I often spend to much time trying to get a drill just right that, by the time I am finished with it, I don’t have enough time to do put quality practice into the rest of the exercises lest I do the same thing.

How do I remedy this?

I got the engine back in the Miata and running yesterday. In the process of putting a new driveshaft in, I sheared a bit of the muffler. So the car now sounds monsterous despite still having only 90 horsepower. I’m sure I won’t get tired of the noise after a drive on the highway…

Same car. One year apart. It, unfortunately is still pink outside. That will change.

I am exited to start EMT school tomorrow. It has been 2 ½ years since I had done any structured schooling, so I am curious how I will reacclamate. I intend EMT school to be the cryastal seed that the rest of my schedule is structured around. My next cycle will be the fighter cycle. Can’t wait.